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Right now I feel like that old "good news/bad news" cliche.

The good news--when they did the CAT Scan, the small lesion on my brain didn't show up. I am going in for an MRI of the brain today to make sure since MRI's are more accurate than CAT Scans.

The bad news--the nurse let something slip that Dr. Conkright is going to talk to me about Tuesday at my appointment. Apparently the cancer isn't responding as well as they expected to this treatment. They will probably change my treatment.

So what is "not as well as he expected?" I'm scared. It's all I can do to hold tears back right now. Thank Heaven's I got Billy out the door before they started. I'm not even supposed to know this. I saw the look of terror on his face when the nurse wanted me to go in for this MRI. I could ease that fear since it is because that lesion may be gone. But a week of fear before I even talk to Dr. Conkright? I don't want him to know until I know what we are going to do. I don't think I could stand to hear that voice I heard from him in the hospital while we waited for the results from the biopsy.
Well, dear Susan, I see that I had missed something here, I am glad I went back a few days to discover your lovely pictures! Thank you for sharing them. It is important to visualize you as you are while sending out our prayers of gratitude for your perfect healing. I love your new look and I love Billy's smile and I love also the lovely picture of your dear son Louis, you did a good job wrapping him up in beautiful colors.
I feel the warmth of this thread and also its good vibes, today I am really very sensitive ... I capture this positive energy, which is working for you.
Yoko is right, you are a beautiful lady with and without hair, in and out. Your soul shines through your eyes and it tells a story of great beauty.
I will now go find some flowers for you ...

In loving closeness,
Margherita 2Hearts

A field of lavendel to breathe in beauty ...
What a day! Almost 12 hours from the doctor's office until I finally got finished with the new chemo treatment at the hospital. Animated1 Since they changed the chemo, they won't lower the steroids until they know how severe the side effects are. And you should see me typing right now! Quick bursts of typing, then I have to stop and back my mind up because it is going even faster than my fingers can type. Wheeeeeee!!!!!!!!! Nut

The news is a mixed bag, and, according to Dr. Conkright, impossible. So I will sandwich the two bad parts between the two great parts.

Remember the MRI I had to go in for after my CAT Scan? The lesion on my brain is really gone! This has Dr. Conkright happily baffled. Confused Clap Apparently, the chemo doesn't reduce brain cancers. But prayer can and did. Reduced it right out of existence. Angel

The reason he started me on a more aggressive chemo was the spot on my liver and the two spots on my bones. They grew a little bit. Frown But this new chemo ought to get it. Mad It is more aggressive than the one he was going to change it to. Me and my big mouth. Eek I told him how few side effects I had been having, and I swear he got this evil grin on his face. Bounce I think it was aimed at the cancer. I asked him if I was going to regret telling him that and he grinned again. Said it was too late, I couldn't take it back. He almost ran out of the room to call the hospital and see if he could get the new treatment scheduled today. PacMan I really love that man. sweety He fights this cancer like it is threatening him or someone in his family.

Now for the other great news! That 9 cm. mass is now down to less than 2 cm! Clap UFO Tongue No wonder I am breathing so much better!!!!

Between prayer and chemo, we are well on our way to beating this. I got a really sweet lecture from Dr. Conkright about not getting upset about having to go to a more aggressive treatment. He wanted to be sure that I focus on the good news from the CAT Scan and MRI.

I think I figured out what happened. I think we focused the prayers and healing energy on my lung and brain. After all, the large mass was in the lung and a lesion on the brain is just plain scary. So now I have to remember to focus some energy to my liver and bones.

Thank you so much for your prayers. Angel

Thank you all so much. I don't know how I would deal with all this without your prayer and support. When the side effects of the chemo start to get me down, I can come here and read the prayers and see all the beautiful images and it helps me find the strength to keep fighting.

This new chemo treatment seems to leave me weaker than the old one. I guess that makes sense since it is a more aggressive treatment. I take so many naps, I feel like I am sleeping my life away. But then, I suppose when I am resting, my body is healing.

My daughter is wanting to buy Billy and me plane tickets to come out and see them over Christmas. I'm going to talk to my doctor Tuesday and see if I will be able to go. It would be so wonderful to see them all. I'm half afraid to get my hopes up. But then, it is possible that we will be done with the chemo by then. So, we'll see what happens.
But then, I suppose when I am resting, my body is healing.

Great thought, dear Susan!

I am deeply grateful for the good news you share and I doubt not for a moment, that liver and bones will be perfectly cleaned from any threatening spots.

We unite and trust, giving grace for being heard.

Wishing you patience during this trying time!

Love and hugs.
Margherita Hug

Healing Light "Ancient Alliance" by Gilbert Williams
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Originally posted by dear Margherita:
We unite and trust, giving grace for being heard.

Wishing you patience during this trying time!
Amen and Awomen! sweety

Continuing to send love and healing prayer energy your way dear Susan. Kiss

some really wonderful replies you all! Great image Yoko!


Have the heart of a gypsy, and the dedication of a soldier -Beethoven in Beethoven Lives Upstairs

Originally posted by dear Teo:
Originally posted by dear Margherita:
We unite and trust, giving grace for being heard.

Wishing you patience during this trying time!
Amen and Awomen! sweety

Continuing to send love and healing prayer energy your way dear Susan. Kiss

some really wonderful replies you all! Great image Yoko!


Aren't they? All this love and support still amazes me. That's okay. I hope I never lose that sense of awe at Life's Miracles and the greatest of those is always Love.

I love that Blue Buddha. I'm going to e-mail it to my daughter. Actually, I may just e-mail her a link to this topic. She has been even moree optimistic about this cancer than I have, at least that is what she says, but I figure seeing all this can't hurt. I know she was terrified when she first heard the news. She's my brave little believer. I've got to get some pictures of her scanned so you all can see my little beauty. And the little stinker had better get me some pictures of Cole! He's growing up without me!
Dear Susan,

Thank you for keeping us informed.
Sending you infinite positive healing prayers.
The cancer will be removed. You are going to be healthy.

Love, Inda


The Gentle Love of Jesus Prayer
By Anselm, Archbishop of Canterbury (1033-1109 AD)

Jesus, as a mother you gather your people to you:
you are gentle with us as a mother with her children.
Often you weep over our sins and our pride:
tenderly you draw us from hatred and judgement.
You comfort us in sorrow and bind up our wounds:
in sickness you nurse us, and with pure milk you feed us.

Jesus, by your dying we are born to new life:
by your anguish and labour we come forth in joy.
Despair turns to hope through your sweet goodness:
through your gentleness we find comfort in fear.
Your warmth gives life to the dead:
your touch makes sinners righteous.

Lord Jesus, in your mercy heal us:
in your love and tenderness remake us.
In your compassion bring grace and forgiveness:
for the beauty of heaven may your love prepare us.


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I FEEL SO GOOD TODAY!!!!! Clap Bounce Juggle jester

The second half of this new treatment isn't as bad as the first. Not only is it only half as long, but I guess it was the Cisplaitin that made me so tired and upset my stomach. Just an upgrade from indigestion to moderate nausea, Thank the Heavens, but it was enough to make me feel pretty bad.

AND, this morning has all been good news.

A friend called this morning to let me know his fiancee was finally taken to Labor and Delivery. The doctor has been trying to postpone it and she has been miserable. Her blood pressure has been on a roller coaster! So, soon there will be a brand new little person in this world. A girl, I think!

I finally got in touch with my Dad. They had been out of town and we had lost their cell phone number! I've got it in my book now. They gave it to me when I was in the hospital and I was so foggy, I have no idea what I did with it!

I'm writing again! I'll post the poems later. Carly told me about cinquains and rictameter and I have been really having fun with them. Of course,right now, it's about cancer and HEALING, but what else would you expect. Maybe I will do one about Angels since I know so many. And I have an idea about transitions incubating at the moment.

I had a strange vision/dream last night. Not either/or, both. A female voice called my name just like when Shawna was about to have Cole. But she called me Susi instead of Susan. Susi is how I sign my artwork. I got my mind quieted again from being startled by hearing a voice behind me when I was in bed.... Eek....and started seeing pictures of artwork. Some painting ideas and then it all became paper mache. When I finally went to sleep, I dreamed of paper mache art. Think someone is trying to tell me something? Maybe I need to get busy.

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