Today the world looks different to me. Today…the world feels different to me. And yet it is the same world I faced and embraced yesterday. It’s the same world of hope and faith and promise that everyday brings to us all. Even in the worst of conditions there always remains this promise. The world is always full of surprise and unexpected turns. And that is a promise.
But today is different. I have a hard time seeing this promise. My country has traded this promise for illusion. And I am having a difficult time accepting that. The majority of “us” believe that homosexuals should not marry. That it’s a sin. A newly elected conservative senator from Oklahoma believes that homosexuals should not only be barred from marriage…but also should be barred from classroom. No homosexual teachers allowed. Half of us believe that bloodshed and violence is a …no the way to address and confront issues of peace. We have awarded and rewarded lies, deceit, misconduct and moral ambiguity. Today the world is different…because we will have more of the same.
This is hard for me to write. I wish to heal and be healed. I am divided because we as a people, as a country and a world are divided. There is no unity in a broken heart. Or perhaps there is? Perhaps the heart broken in a thousand different paths allows the footsteps of many to walk a healing path? In my practice of meditation there is the constant act of allowing and staying present to what is. Even in the face of the unpleasant…especially in the face of the difficult. And nothing is more difficult for me now.
So this is my practice. The healing of myself, the allowing of what is in a moment of suffering. Every breath brings me back to the promise of the promise. Inhaling…I breathe myself back to the peace that unites a broken heart. Exhaling…I see the promise that lies within us all. Breathing in…I let go of all that separates…breathing out…I am whole and connected to each of you.
Breath by breath I come closer to healing. And in this healing I offer peace to you, peace to those who are different and yet part of me, peace to myself who is different and yet part of you. Peace to us all. Within this present moment…may a brighter future be revealed.
I love you,