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They come with an array of health problems, not to mention the aesthetic part, considering that for the rest of my body, I wear children's clothes, because the smallest woman's size here, is too big for me.
I hate that I'm venting about this, most people are not sympathetic at all, wrongly thinking that because I've got Pam Anderson's boobs, I should be the happiest girl on earth
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Not for me it's not. So I'm nervous, about my insurance not covering it, and I'm also a little scared of being the one out of 15,000 surgeries to experience anesthesia awareness
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Also, once I get the surgery I will have no one except for my brother to take care of me and clean my bandages and help me shower, etc...weird
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would that be ok? or is it too weird for a brother who is also my best friend to see my boobs?
Anyway, I guess I just need a little support from women, it would make me feel a little better, and since I have no women in my life, as my mother and whole family abandoned me, I guess I'm just going to have to get it from YOU
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Alright, I'll just be here waiting for the support and getting ready for tomorrow. Also, my PTSD has made me agoraphobic and photophobic, as I usually panic terribly in public or driving without a companion, and tomorrow, I have to do just that, so...I'm taking Liam, my beautiful baby puppy with me.
Baby Liam
He is my little service dog and they'll have to deal, otherwise, I could panic so much that I could faint or dissociate while driving and crash:dontknow
So, I've vented enough...
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Love to you all
Aless
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