There is no attention in people. You must aim to acquire this. Self-observation is only possible after acquiring attention. Start on small things.
Your nervious and restless movements make everyone know, consciously or unconsciously, that you have no authority and are a booby. With these restless movements you cannot be anything. The first thing for you to do is to stop these movements. Make this your aim, your God. Even get your family to help you. Only after this, you can perhaps gain attention. This is an example of doing.
Another example--an aspiring pianist can never learn except little by little. If you wish to play melodies without first practicing, you can never play real melodies. The melodies you will play will be cacophonous and will make people suffer and hate you. It is the same with psychological ideas: to gain anything, long practice is necessary.
Try to accomplish very small things first. If at first you aim at big things you will never be anything. And your manifestations will act like cacophonous melodies and cause people to hate you.
There are two kinds of doing--automatic doing, and doing according to aim. Take a small thing which you now are not able to do, and make this your aim, your God. Let nothing interfere. Only aim at this. Then, if you succeed in doing this, I will be able to give you a greater task. Now you have an appetite. You can never do these things, and this appetite keeps you from doing the small things you might do. Destroy this appetite, forget big things. Make the breaking of a small habit your aim.
-Views from the Real World. G.I.Gurdjieff
May we all learn attentiveness. May we all gain attention.
I am getting a lot out of my Gurdjieff studies, and just wanted to share some key points I'm learning. As he says: "Self-observation is very difficult. The more you try, the more clearly you will see this." Well I am trying, and clearly.. clearing my paths! he he.. well starting to understand my self - my selfs more. Thanks for this opportunity to share this.
Joyfully gaining attention love to all, Teo
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